Monthly Archives: June 2012

Writing Life: “This Sucks, I Suck, Why-the-Eff-am-I-Bothering-Itus”

Today’s Writing Life post topic is courtesy my friend Rei.  HI, REI!

We all get there.  We get to that point, especially during the revision process, where we look over our manuscript and think “What the hell is this?”  We sigh and put it down, and some of us don’t come back to it for months.  We feel weighed down, helpless, listless… We don’t know what to change and we don’t know what to keep, because, let’s face it, it’s all freaking terrible and we never want to look at it again.

You’re just overwhelmed!  I’ve made the mistake of deleting and destroying every copy of a manuscript I have in my possession, and, believe me, the regret is twice as overwhelming as the listlessness.  You try to rewrite and recapture all that you loved about the story, but it’s just gone.  It’s not the same.  The characters have moved on to other stories and mystical events that only imaginary people can take part in.  (Those characters may want to revisit the story with you about five years later, I should note.  Frost Moon punched me in the face again about six months ago, as if my main character was saying “You couldn’t do it right the first time, so let’s try this again.  Now pay attention.”)

First off?

Your story does not suck.  You fell in love with the journey and the characters for a reason.  You just need to recapture that reason.   What about the story struck you to begin with?  What songs remind you of your characters?  Take a walk.  Enjoy a few deep breaths.  Think about your characters the way you did when they started begging for their story to be penned.  Don’t touch you manuscript for a few days to a week, and let the romance with your story rekindle itself.

You do not suck.  Everyone needs a breather now and then.  That does not make you less of a writer or less of a person.  Even the strongest people need a few minutes now and again to just breathe.  You are a writer.  You are a story teller.  The stories inside you won’t die while you’re taking a vacation.  I promise, in this case, absence makes the heart grow fonder, and before long, your characters will be screaming to get out again.  Just breathe.

Why the eff are you bothering?  Because you love what you do.  Because you’re filled with more than just the base need to exist.  Your purpose is to pen a story that people will fall in love with, that they’ll learn from, that will change them.  You create souls from nothing and put them on a page, parts of yourself, and you let people share in that with you.

Why are you bothering?  Because what you do is important.  It’s important to you, and it’s important to someone else out there, maybe hundreds of someones.  Thousands.  People who need a story to relate to.

Don’t sell yourself short, and always remember to breathe.

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Kadri, Sewing, and Sundries

A little overview of a new project (probably poorly presented, since I’m freaking exhausted right now), crafts, and possibilities.

There WILL be a Writing Life post on Friday!  I promise I’ll get better at this update thing.  For the last 2 months, I’ve been working six days a week, then I got sick and injured last week.  I just can’t seem to budget my time well, but I’m trying to improve. <3  I hope you all still love me.

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Busy few weeks (also, I need your opinions)

So, I’ve been working 6 days a week recently, and thought that I would have the motivation to complete June’s edition of Camp NaNoWriMo.  That was a wash.  I’ll try again in August.  The exhaustion is ruining my writing process.

Then there’s the homesickness I have to contend with.  As much as I hated Webster, I liked it better than Florida.  This place is a hellhole, Jacksonville especially. (Apologies to anyone who lives here.)  Being away from most of the people that I love, in a place that is so completely inhospitable and, frankly, weird, has taken its toll.  I’m a New England kind of girl, and the mindset that Florida is putting me in has brought me down hard.

I’m trying to get a handle on it, though.  It’s hard to run a blog about writing when you can’t get any done, right?

I do, however, have ample plotting material for a piece of fiction that I’m trying like hell to get rolling on.  I put Muse on the back burner for the time being.  I’m not executing it as well as I’d like, and I need to go back and see where I went wrong and where I can improve.  The piece I’m working on has been mentioned on G&L a few times, and still has no title.  The main character is Kadri, the clone.  She’s spiffy.  I love her.

Which brings me to the point of this post:  I’ve already gotten a physician’s take on this situation, but I need the opinions of the readers of science fiction.  Ready?

If a certain group of people are genetically engineered, would they pass their alterations down to their offspring?  If those genetically engineered people only breed with one another (taking incest out of the equation), are they more likely to pass down those alterations than if they produced offspring with a normal human being?

Thoughts?

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